I just can't help feeling that I'm being given some nudges by the divine 2-4...

And that if I don't react soon I'll be hit. Hard.

What is the probability of me meeting someone at the exact time I'm starting to fall apart, then I'm restored (more or less, but actually less) but left with the feeling that things DO change. Meeting someone who I feel instantly drawn to, and from whom I get the feeling that we might be so alike? Someone with whom I can talk and who I think understands some of the things I'm going through? Someone I feel for when I read his blog entries, the few ones he has - and catch myself feeling that he has written my thoughts there.

And now here's a catch you probably didn't wait for: there's actually 2 of these persons (ok, the blog thing applies to only the more problematic case), the other one being a girl I've known for some time but now become really close with. The other one... Well.

And as if this wasn't enough - just as I start to get down from my first high of these meetings and decide to do nothing much about it, to get back home and give my previous relationship still one chance (I wouldn't do anything radical by email, even though it would be easier...), what happens?

My man decides to pull off one of his sulking-angry-stunts basically blamig me for something (I still don't know what I'm supposed to have done this time) and trying to get me to paw and comfort his ego. Well, guess what? At the moment:

I. Just. Couldn't. Care. Less.

And I'm so tempted to tell him that that I won't respond his last email before something happens. To one way or the other. As I said, no rash decisions over email, but still...

And then I hear comments about leaving people, even encouraging me - some of them from the exact people from whom I want to hear them.

And just when it starts to bother me more and more that I can't share some sides of me with my current boyfriend, I first of all find someone with whom I can speak about anything literally the whole night through... And someone from whome I get the feelings that he's been there and might understand me in a way others usually don't.

Hints or just wishful thinking? Whatever they are, the timing is, as always, immaculate...